He’s Gone

8 07 2009

Kenny left yesterday.  Wow, I’m kinda surprised how hard I took it.

I went to work in the morning.  Taught my swim lessons.  Then I went home to change and make myself look decent.  I made the mistake of putting on eye makeup.  but I did want to look good for that last time that he saw me.  He texted me to tell me to come by the house.  I got to spend a little bit of time with him before everyone else showed up.  He apologized for the night before and how he couldn’t give me as much attention the evening before because of some of the people that were visiting.  Everyone kinda just chilled until it was time for Kenny to go to the airport.

At the airport it was Betty, Jeff, Colby, Colton, Mike, Jasmine, Kayla, Tine, and me.  Everyone cried.  including Kenny.  That was kinda funny cuz he was trying so hard to not do it.  He was making excuses like it was windy (we were inside the airport).  We went outside to watch the plane take off and Mike had to hold me for a bit cuz I was crying.  he said Kenny would be ok and we would see him in 4 months.  The problem is that I will be at school by then and I won’t be home til December.  Betty heard that and she said that I would see him when he came back whether it was him coming to visit me or them flying me home as a present for him. She also held me for a bit.  man, I am such a child.  Their was no way I could have done it without them.

I had an interesting conversation with one of Kenny’s friends earlier in the day.  I don’t have my side of the texts anymore but I was talking with Clayton about drama and I told him about people were making problems with Kenny and me.  he said.  “wtf for?  your the best kenny has had for a long time.  He talks about you so much.  The other people don’t matter.  You and him are the only things that do.”  I told Clayton how I was nervous he wouldn’t like me cuz the last time he saw me, I was almost dating his friend, Codey.  He responded with… “Codey ditched me too and I don’t judge people.  I’m just happy its you kenny has and not some crazed heartless butt again.  Your the only gf hes ever had thats trustworthy.  Treat him well and don’t break his heart.  he has had so much of that.”  That all meant a lot to me to receive hope that things will be ok.  I don’t want to be that girl that is only seen as a toy so it was interesting to see that he honestly talked well about me and his friends know that they don’t have to worry with me breaking his heart.

Before Kenny left I also wrote him his first letter and gave him my contact info.  I also printed off a couple pictures so he has those.  He also left some of his stuff in my car so I took one of his national guard notebooks and went in a couple pages and wrote a little note saying that I missed him and to stay strong.  So that will be an extra little surprize when he finds it.  I told my friend, Sam, and she thought that was a really cute idea.

l_6952b5e54780f6865af3d7a9a6d459fcSo there is a picture of Kenny.  We dated for a little bit and now we are friends.  I will miss the kid but he is strong.  He can do it. And he will come back in one piece.  I will beat in his face if he doesn’t.



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